happy new year

resolutions for 2018

this journal is late but i was working on the 1st so heck it all to heck, and also, who cares. anyway i have a lot i need to do this year if i want to actually carve my way out of the rut i'm in. i'm not going to count on getting out of this town anytime soon so i guess my main aim is just to... make SOMETHING of my life here and stop living my life like i'm waiting to leave. this town is a black hole and i still hate it here but you know! whatever! can't just live 5% of a life i fucking guess!

draw something every day even if it's a small doodle
@ future me: yes this sounds like a condescending goal but have you done it today? fuck you

exercise on every day not spent at work
even a little is fine just get off your ass. depressed? too bad, do it. on your period? too bad do it do it do it

wean self off social media
keep: dreamwidth, art twitter, rift twitter, personal site
lose: everything else except facebook's bare bones, which i'll only keep for messenger

cut down on drinking
drink only on special occasions, at least. last year was a shambles

lesser notes

• get another job?
• buy a bike and ride it tae fuck
• maybe a gym membership?
• scrub my personal data off the web as much as possible
• use dreamwidth way more!! this is such a good way to solve my shitty memory problems why am i so inconsistent
• wear binder more often, but for shorter periods of time
• be braver and bolder, in general. stop being a timid mouse about literally everything. get my swagger back. lmao no seriously start challenging people when they get intimidating and also remember to own public spaces, they're mine too, i'm entitled to be there, stop feeling like i'm intruding wherever i go, and also stop apologising for no reason. AND PROJECT!!! THAT!!! VOICE!!!
• addendum to "be brave" bulletpoint: go out and fuck for once in my god damn life*

*note to future self: don't fuck people you see every day. this is called shitting where you eat

that's all folks